I may never hit a million sales, but I am proud that I put my book out there for the world to see. It was hard because Brianna, Chris, and Steven have become like another family to me in a weird sort of way. You don't turn your back on family even if no one else gets them.
These fictional characters that I have grown to love are a huge part of me. They came from my imagination, and I built their world. This process took me years to get completely right. I put so much of myself into this project. I put in time, effort, tears, and frustration.
My favorite scene in the book is when Chris and Brianna are taking a walk together on her birthday. I love the conversations that they shared on that day. To me, that is a golden moment. I'm not saying this to pat myself on the back, but it's just one of those scenes that made me happy during the countless hours of editing and rewrites. It was a part that made me feel that I didn't stink as an author.
I think a lot of authors go through the same thing. You feel like you stink as an author, but eventually you see that it's not the case. If you are doing something you love keep at it and never give up. There will always be those that doubt you, but don't let the negativity win. You can do it.
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Saturday, May 24, 2014
Thoughts About My Book
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Monday, May 19, 2014
My Journey Through Breaking the Surface
Original Artwork by Kaleb Dunn
Breaking the Surface is my first novel, and it took my heart and soul to write it. I started writing this book years ago, and I can hardly believe that it is finally up for people to buy!
This novel took all I had to write. There were many times when I had to just put the writing away, and pick it back up later. There were many days of writer's block, tears, and hair pulling.
I have to say that Evanescence got me through this book. For some reason if I really wanted to write, I had to have them playing in the background. They brought out the feelings that I had deep inside that went along with the storyline.
I also got rid of a lot of demons as I wrote this book. Many of the things Brianna went through in the beginning of this novel I did as well. It felt good to be rid of them, and stick them out for the world to see.
I have also met a new friend because of this book. Kaleb Dunn did the stunning artwork for this book, and I couldn't be happier with it. That leads me to an old friend I need to thank, Mike Whitehead, who put Kaleb in my path.
My family has been so supportive of my writing. They have been editors, listeners, sounding boards, and they were never afraid to tell me when something didn't work. I love them for being the great family that they are.
In the end, I have learned that writing takes patience, a strong support system, good music, and you meet friends that you never would have before.
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Monday, January 20, 2014
Random Thoughts
Sitting here at my desk, I just decided to write and see where the words take me. There are many things in my life that I am forever grateful for: my family, my dear sweet husband that means more to me than mere words can ever express.
The love we have has grown through good and bad times, has withstood the test of time, and has been a stabling force in the turmoil that my brain puts me through on a daily basis. He will never know how I look up to him, how his words can put a smile on my heart and a spring in my step.
I am forever grateful for Tyler and his example. He hurts on a daily basis, but he never asks why me. He has a heart as big as the great outdoors. If people would give him a chance, they would get to know a loving, honest, caring, and giving person that amazes me constantly.
I'm not saying these things just because I am so deeply in love with my family. These people amaze me and fill me with a joy that I have to admit that I am at a loss to convey.
They put up with my book addiction, and my writing. They are my biggest fans. They have no doubt that I'll be published, and when the task seems insurmountable, they build me up and let me know that I can do it. My book addiction has grown to four filled bookcases in our small home, and we are planning to add another for the books that have no home right now. Yes, my family not only puts up with this, they support it.
Our family is a bit strange. We are Star Trek fans-diehards, we love heavy metal, we read as a family together, we are best friends, and we like the same things.
We are there for the good and bad times, just like a family should. We treasure each other, and that's the way it should be.
Now for some other things. I am trying a new healthy living lifestyle, and it's really working. I'm eating healthier, and trying to figure out what to do about exercise. Any ideas for a beginner would be appreciated. Just keep in mind that I am agoraphobic, so going out for a walk is impossible right now.
To all of the people that have a place in my heart: Rachel S., Sam, Brittni E., Erica P., Nicole S.
, and and everyone else I am forgetting, I love you.
The love we have has grown through good and bad times, has withstood the test of time, and has been a stabling force in the turmoil that my brain puts me through on a daily basis. He will never know how I look up to him, how his words can put a smile on my heart and a spring in my step.
I am forever grateful for Tyler and his example. He hurts on a daily basis, but he never asks why me. He has a heart as big as the great outdoors. If people would give him a chance, they would get to know a loving, honest, caring, and giving person that amazes me constantly.
I'm not saying these things just because I am so deeply in love with my family. These people amaze me and fill me with a joy that I have to admit that I am at a loss to convey.
They put up with my book addiction, and my writing. They are my biggest fans. They have no doubt that I'll be published, and when the task seems insurmountable, they build me up and let me know that I can do it. My book addiction has grown to four filled bookcases in our small home, and we are planning to add another for the books that have no home right now. Yes, my family not only puts up with this, they support it.
Our family is a bit strange. We are Star Trek fans-diehards, we love heavy metal, we read as a family together, we are best friends, and we like the same things.
We are there for the good and bad times, just like a family should. We treasure each other, and that's the way it should be.
Now for some other things. I am trying a new healthy living lifestyle, and it's really working. I'm eating healthier, and trying to figure out what to do about exercise. Any ideas for a beginner would be appreciated. Just keep in mind that I am agoraphobic, so going out for a walk is impossible right now.
To all of the people that have a place in my heart: Rachel S., Sam, Brittni E., Erica P., Nicole S.
, and and everyone else I am forgetting, I love you.
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
I Don't Mind If You Don't
I have never made a secret of much about my life. I think that I am pretty open. Over the last year or so, I have grown to accept myself. I have some weird quirks, but that's okay; everyone does. Some of the more controversial things about me and my family in my circle of friends are as follows:
In our house it's the parents that are playing the rock and heavy metal music.
No subject is off limits. Our son knows about our past mistakes so he can learn from them.
We all love the same music, movies and tv shows.
We took our son to his first rock concert.
I have no problem wearing black nail polish and dying my hair funky colors.
We don't care what other people think about us.
Yes, some may not like out list, but we are the tightest family that you will ever find, and our son is well adjusted, happy, and we all love each other. So, I don't mind your quirks if you don't mind ours.
In our house it's the parents that are playing the rock and heavy metal music.
No subject is off limits. Our son knows about our past mistakes so he can learn from them.
We all love the same music, movies and tv shows.
We took our son to his first rock concert.
I have no problem wearing black nail polish and dying my hair funky colors.
We don't care what other people think about us.
Yes, some may not like out list, but we are the tightest family that you will ever find, and our son is well adjusted, happy, and we all love each other. So, I don't mind your quirks if you don't mind ours.
Monday, December 16, 2013
What I Love
There are so many things that I love, but I want to share just a few of them with you.
1.I love my family.
2. I love the way that our family is with each other. We share such a strong love with each other.
3. I love my pajama days.
4. I love the truth. Lies hurt.
5. I love church.
6. I love Christmas.
7. I love hot chocolate, or any form of chocolate.
8. I love hugs.
9. I love washing my hair. Weird, I know.
10. I love the way my hubby looks at me.
11. I love the ocean.
12. I love to color.
Those are just a few of the things that I love and care about, but there are so many more. What about you? What do you love?
1.I love my family.
2. I love the way that our family is with each other. We share such a strong love with each other.
3. I love my pajama days.
4. I love the truth. Lies hurt.
5. I love church.
6. I love Christmas.
7. I love hot chocolate, or any form of chocolate.
8. I love hugs.
9. I love washing my hair. Weird, I know.
10. I love the way my hubby looks at me.
11. I love the ocean.
12. I love to color.
Those are just a few of the things that I love and care about, but there are so many more. What about you? What do you love?
Monday, January 28, 2013
Yes. I Mean It!
There are a couple of points that I want to make clear.
When I say that I am an author, I really mean that I am an author. I write, and I will be getting my books published. You can laugh all you want, but I will be getting my stuff published.
When I say that I have an incredible family, I really mean that I have an incredible family.
When I sayu that the bottom fell out of my world the day my dad died, I really mean it.
When I say that I miss him so much I can hardly breathe at times, I mean it.
When I tell you that my faith keeps me going, I really mean it.
When I tell you that my Father in Heaven holds me together, I really mean it.
When I tell you that the Savior makes all things possible, I really mean it.
When I tell you that the Holy Ghost comforts me, I really mean it.
When I tell you that Green Eggs and Ham is one of the best books ever written, I really mean it.
When I tell you that my two sons are amazing, I mean it.
When I tell you that I want to float in a pool of chocolate and caramel, I really mean it.
When I tell you that hope means a lot to me, I really mean it.
When I tell you that I will make my dreams come true, I REALLY MEAN IT!
When I say that I am an author, I really mean that I am an author. I write, and I will be getting my books published. You can laugh all you want, but I will be getting my stuff published.
When I say that I have an incredible family, I really mean that I have an incredible family.
When I sayu that the bottom fell out of my world the day my dad died, I really mean it.
When I say that I miss him so much I can hardly breathe at times, I mean it.
When I tell you that my faith keeps me going, I really mean it.
When I tell you that my Father in Heaven holds me together, I really mean it.
When I tell you that the Savior makes all things possible, I really mean it.
When I tell you that the Holy Ghost comforts me, I really mean it.
When I tell you that Green Eggs and Ham is one of the best books ever written, I really mean it.
When I tell you that my two sons are amazing, I mean it.
When I tell you that I want to float in a pool of chocolate and caramel, I really mean it.
When I tell you that hope means a lot to me, I really mean it.
When I tell you that I will make my dreams come true, I REALLY MEAN IT!
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Saturday, January 19, 2013
No Longer A Chicken!!!
Now I Am A Warrior Princess!!!! |
I Am No Longer A Chicken! |
I've had supposed friends treat me like I was a bad mother, family members that acted as if my home wasn't good enough, I always felt less than. Less than what I should be, less that what people expected of me, I always felt as if I were my family and friends last choice. That no one really wanted me around.
I've had things that have happened to me to make me feel horrid about myself: strangers laughing at me, an old friend looking at me and exclaiming about how fat I was, someone asking me about how I don't have a lap (actually I do), someone singing a weight loss song to me in the store, a family member saying something rude about our home, and many other things.
I have cut the people that I can out of my life that have been hurting me, and I've set boundaries so that no one that enters my life will have the power to make me feel badly about myself. I have had to say goodbye to some family, and friends that were never really friends to begin with.
I am a good person!
I deserve to be happy!
I deserve to have the wonderful husband and son that I have!
If you would try to bring me down-see ya!
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Sunday, January 13, 2013
Full Heart
There are many people that seem to be unhappy, or constantly complaining about their lives when they have so much to be grateful for.
My heart is full of gratitude for the blessings in my life. I have a home, that to some, may seem to be humble, but to me it is a palace.
Our health may not be wonderful, but our home is full of love, and with that love we help each other every day.
Even in a time of mourning, I have peace and comfort in the Gospel. I know that through the Savior my family can be together forever.
That brings me to my family. I have a wonderful husband that I love with all of my heart. We stand by each other through the good times and the bad times. He is a wonderful, faithful priesthood holder that exercises his duties with faith and love. He has no idea what a great man he is. I just wish he could see himself as I see him.
Our son Tyler, has lived with years of chronic pain, yet he is a young man filled with love and faith. His heart is big, and his sweet spirit is generous and kind. He has so many amazing qualities. Being a faithful priesthood holder among them. He is honest, compassionate, and always willing to help. He is an excellent example in so many ways.
Our son, David, is a blessing as well. He has a big heart, he's sweet, funny, and compassionate. He is an amazingly hard worker, and he knows what he wants from life. He is talented, and giving. There are so many ways that he has blessed our lives and the lives of others.
I also have many sweet friends that I look forward to speaking with daily: Gail, Tiffani, Shoan, Jackie, Kasi, Amy Lynn, Sianee, Megan, Ed, Elizabeth, Susan, Brian, Melissa, Kierra, and so many others! They all have a special place in my heart.
Then there are my hobbies that I am grateful for. I love writing, reading, and doing my book reviews. I am so grateful that I have these in my life.
I think that everything comes down to gratitude and looking for the blessings that are all around us. Heavenly Father has blessed each of us in so many ways. Instead of having an attitude of pessimism, have an attitude of gratitude for what we do have.
My heart is full of gratitude for the blessings in my life. I have a home, that to some, may seem to be humble, but to me it is a palace.
Our health may not be wonderful, but our home is full of love, and with that love we help each other every day.
Even in a time of mourning, I have peace and comfort in the Gospel. I know that through the Savior my family can be together forever.
That brings me to my family. I have a wonderful husband that I love with all of my heart. We stand by each other through the good times and the bad times. He is a wonderful, faithful priesthood holder that exercises his duties with faith and love. He has no idea what a great man he is. I just wish he could see himself as I see him.
Our son Tyler, has lived with years of chronic pain, yet he is a young man filled with love and faith. His heart is big, and his sweet spirit is generous and kind. He has so many amazing qualities. Being a faithful priesthood holder among them. He is honest, compassionate, and always willing to help. He is an excellent example in so many ways.
Our son, David, is a blessing as well. He has a big heart, he's sweet, funny, and compassionate. He is an amazingly hard worker, and he knows what he wants from life. He is talented, and giving. There are so many ways that he has blessed our lives and the lives of others.
I also have many sweet friends that I look forward to speaking with daily: Gail, Tiffani, Shoan, Jackie, Kasi, Amy Lynn, Sianee, Megan, Ed, Elizabeth, Susan, Brian, Melissa, Kierra, and so many others! They all have a special place in my heart.
Then there are my hobbies that I am grateful for. I love writing, reading, and doing my book reviews. I am so grateful that I have these in my life.
I think that everything comes down to gratitude and looking for the blessings that are all around us. Heavenly Father has blessed each of us in so many ways. Instead of having an attitude of pessimism, have an attitude of gratitude for what we do have.
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Sunday, October 21, 2012
My Daddy
My dad passed away yesterday morning, peacefully, in his sleep. I want to share with you some things about the man that always slayed the dragons for me, that taught me how to dance, walked me down the aisle, and was there for me always.
When I was little, I was a Daddy's girl. I loved it when he came home from work, I would sit on his knee, and in those moments he was my whole world. When my grandmother would come to visit, I made sure I was the center of his attention, much to her annoyance. Yeah, I was little and loud.
Bless his heart. He took me fishing, and we had some experiences! I cast, aiming for the water, and I ended up catching my dad in his back. I was also afraid of the fish, so when I did manage to catch something another time, it ended up back in the water because I couldn't bring myself to touch that flippy floppy fish after my dad took the hook out. It managed to flip his way back into the water. My dad had so much patience with me.
One story he loved to bring up was when we played catch. Now please keep in mind that I have absolutely no hand eye coordination whatsoever. He would throw the ball, I would watch it go by, and he ended up running to get it.
As I got older, and had Tyler, he came to the hospital with a red rose for me, and when he looked at Tyler, he said, "Cute little bugger isn't he?" Yup, that's my dad. He became a second father to Tyler. He loved taking him out to see his garden, and holding him on his lap after work and sharing his dinner with him. Another one of his favorite memories was when Tyler was just toddling around outside with him, and Tyler said, "Up the hill Pa, up the hill." He loved Tyler like he was his own child.
This is one of my favorite memories. My dad had just had surgery on his foot, but there was never a question about him walking me down the aisle on my wedding day. I was so nervous, and I told my dad that I couldn't do it. His response was, "Oh yes you can." and I did. I don't know what kind of pain he was in on that day, but he made sure that he danced with me.
There were all of the little things that he did that I'll miss. He loved to watch sunsets, feed the squirrels in the back yard, plant a garden, and he loved anything that involved nature. We took a vacation up the coast of Quebec, and that is still a favorite memory of ours. He would always check on us to make sure we were feeling okay, and to see how we were doing. He shared stories about working for the Department of Agriculture when he was young. I loved listening to all of my dads stories.
My dad was and is someone that I will love. He had so much to share if you were just willing to listen. He was so smart, and full of knowledge, and he found joy in the simple things of life: Camping, nature, cooking, and he loved to watch cooking shows.
Daddy, I love you, miss you, and God Be With You 'til We Meet Again.
When I was little, I was a Daddy's girl. I loved it when he came home from work, I would sit on his knee, and in those moments he was my whole world. When my grandmother would come to visit, I made sure I was the center of his attention, much to her annoyance. Yeah, I was little and loud.
Bless his heart. He took me fishing, and we had some experiences! I cast, aiming for the water, and I ended up catching my dad in his back. I was also afraid of the fish, so when I did manage to catch something another time, it ended up back in the water because I couldn't bring myself to touch that flippy floppy fish after my dad took the hook out. It managed to flip his way back into the water. My dad had so much patience with me.
One story he loved to bring up was when we played catch. Now please keep in mind that I have absolutely no hand eye coordination whatsoever. He would throw the ball, I would watch it go by, and he ended up running to get it.
As I got older, and had Tyler, he came to the hospital with a red rose for me, and when he looked at Tyler, he said, "Cute little bugger isn't he?" Yup, that's my dad. He became a second father to Tyler. He loved taking him out to see his garden, and holding him on his lap after work and sharing his dinner with him. Another one of his favorite memories was when Tyler was just toddling around outside with him, and Tyler said, "Up the hill Pa, up the hill." He loved Tyler like he was his own child.
This is one of my favorite memories. My dad had just had surgery on his foot, but there was never a question about him walking me down the aisle on my wedding day. I was so nervous, and I told my dad that I couldn't do it. His response was, "Oh yes you can." and I did. I don't know what kind of pain he was in on that day, but he made sure that he danced with me.
There were all of the little things that he did that I'll miss. He loved to watch sunsets, feed the squirrels in the back yard, plant a garden, and he loved anything that involved nature. We took a vacation up the coast of Quebec, and that is still a favorite memory of ours. He would always check on us to make sure we were feeling okay, and to see how we were doing. He shared stories about working for the Department of Agriculture when he was young. I loved listening to all of my dads stories.
My dad was and is someone that I will love. He had so much to share if you were just willing to listen. He was so smart, and full of knowledge, and he found joy in the simple things of life: Camping, nature, cooking, and he loved to watch cooking shows.
Daddy, I love you, miss you, and God Be With You 'til We Meet Again.
Friday, October 19, 2012
Please...Please...Please
My dad holding me when I was a baby.
I am sending out a plea to all of my friends and family that smoke. Please, I beg you to stop.
My dad went from an amazingly strong man to being bedridden, unable to walk, unable to eat or drink on his own, and with a horrid cough that is with him all day and all night. He's been reduced to skin and bone, and he's so weak that he needs help to even roll over.
I'm not trying to offend anyone, or make anyone feel bad. It's just the opposite. I don't want to see anyone that I love go through this kind of suffering. I don't want anyone else to feel what my dad is feeling.
My dad was diagnosed, went through chemo and radiation, had a blessed period of remission, and then the cancer came back with a vengeance. It spread from his lungs, to his neck, and brain. We're waiting now for the end to come, and his suffering to be over.
So, please, quit smoking. It's the best way to prevent this from happening to you. If not for you do it for your family. The pain and anguish that we are feeling is unbearable.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Surprise!!!
No it's not what you think. I'm NOT pregnant!!! Thank goodness!!! Not that I don't love being a mom, but having our sons all grown up by the time we are in our 30s is very nice.
I'm hoping to have my book in publishers hands in about 2 months. That will be amazing. I'm outlining book numbers 2 and 3, and that makes me one very contented author.
There is one thing that has been bothering me as of late. It's feeling like the people that were once my friends have drifted away, or are drifting away. I realize that is to be expected on some level, but it does kind of suck. My world because of the agoraphobia is one that takes place virtually rather than completely physically. I am okay around certain people: my hubby, sons, and therapist, so logically it makes sense that people would drift. It doesn't mean that I have to like it, though.
So, if you are one of my friends, virtual or not, please know that I'm here and missing you. Please know that I haven't forgotten you, so please don't forget me. Please know that if I could be there physically, I would. I'm working on it, but it will take time. So, here is the big question:
Will you be my friend?
I'm hoping to have my book in publishers hands in about 2 months. That will be amazing. I'm outlining book numbers 2 and 3, and that makes me one very contented author.
There is one thing that has been bothering me as of late. It's feeling like the people that were once my friends have drifted away, or are drifting away. I realize that is to be expected on some level, but it does kind of suck. My world because of the agoraphobia is one that takes place virtually rather than completely physically. I am okay around certain people: my hubby, sons, and therapist, so logically it makes sense that people would drift. It doesn't mean that I have to like it, though.
So, if you are one of my friends, virtual or not, please know that I'm here and missing you. Please know that I haven't forgotten you, so please don't forget me. Please know that if I could be there physically, I would. I'm working on it, but it will take time. So, here is the big question:
Will you be my friend?
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Growing
Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be where I am today. I am getting healthier all of the time. I'm learning how to set boundaries, and I'm enjoying blogging and writing my books. The most difficult part is having patience with myself. I always want things done yesterday. I want everything to be taken care of a month ago, and realizing that it will take a very long time for things to fall into place the way I want them to is a bummer. I have so much love in my life with my family. I am cherished by them, and I cherish them. I'm also learning that it's okay to cut out toxic people from my life. I know that I can set those limits and it's not wrong. My world is a joyful place to be. I love my life. I have the most incredible husband that shows me so much support and love. How could I not be happy?
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Teen Mom
I must confess that I love the show Teen Mom on MTV. I think I love it so much because I lived it. Adam and I got pregnant with Tyler when I was 16, and I gave birth when I was 17. People talk about babies having babies, but I think I pretty much became an adult when the test came back with a big pink + sign.
My mom talked about my "choices", but the only choice for me was to keep my baby. I wanted that little life that was growing inside me.
Being pregnant my senior year was not easy. Of course, I was the talk of the school. I ate lunch in the nurse's office so I wouldn't have to face a huge room of people. I didn't go out with friends, or do much. Once you are pregnant you can never forget that little person that is depending on you to make the right choices. You always know that you're different. You always know that the people you are surrounded by everyday at school have freedom to do just what they want.
I managed to finish my senior year in half time. I was able to graduate with my class Tyler was three months old, and cheering me on from his little stroller. I remember being left out of the senior slide show. That really hurt, but people can be ignorant. It's not like pregnancy is contagious.
Tyler was and is the best surprise ever. He has always been my little bit of Heaven. I don't regret a thing. Having him and making our little family is the best. He made us a complete package. Was it easy? Not at all. Was he worth it? Oh my goodness, YES!!!!!
Sunday, October 30, 2011
My Favorites!!!!
I wanted to help you get to know me better by sharing some of my favorite things in the UNIVERSE with you!
I love my little family with my whole heart. I gave my heart to my husband when I was sixteen, and he has cared for it ever since. I never want it back. Our son is and has always been a wonder and joy to us. He is a gift from Heavenly Father that I will forever cherish.
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I am grateful for my testimony of Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost. I am also grateful for the role of families in His plan for us.
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I love books-
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Writing is my favorite thing to do.
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I love birds. There is a lilac tree by our neighbor's house and I saw the two cutest birds in it yesterday. It was an aaaawwww moment.
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I love cats. We only have one, my little Emily, and she is so adorable and dorky. I love that kitty!
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I love babies, but they always seem to be leaking somewhere. I don't get that part, but little baby feet and bellies are the cutest!
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Music is a must have in my life! I love all kinds except opera, and most classical music.
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I love that my parents live so close to us. I love that I get to see them all of the time, and that they have been such an important part of Tyler's life.
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I love bacon, but if I didn't I would be just plain crazy.
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I love that I got to see an angel on earth through Ben Orton. That boy is so sweet, and is missed.
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I love that our family is filled with love.
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I love that I have an "adopted" son, and that he is such a good person!
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We read as a family every night. We have shared so many good books together.
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I love Christmas and Thanksgiving!
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I love berries.
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I love twinkle lights!
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I want to snuggle with a polar bear, panda bear, and grizzly bear, but I don't see that happening anytime soon :)
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I love to laugh.
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I love journaling, when I remember to do it ;)
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I love all animals! They are so sweet.
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I love hugs.
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I love the ocean.
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I want to go to Ireland, and stay for a couple of months.
That's just a sampling of the things I love. I'm sure there are a lot more, but that's it for now. Love and Hugs!!!!
Saturday, June 11, 2011
My Cluttered Mind
I have many things to share. Just some completely random thoughts that have been floating around my cluttered mind.
I know that everyone on this revolving marble has to go through trials and tribulations. I get it. I am just so tired of seeing my sweet husband and son suffer with migraines. We are seeing neurologists, and I know that to find the right solution will take time, but it is heartbreaking when you do all you can and they still suffer.
I am so effin' tired, I could sleep for two weeks. Tyler tends to have long nights due to the migraines, and I wake up to help him. I do believe it may be catching up to me. Yeah...very tired.
I have also realized lately that I am a square peg. I know I have thought that before, but I really am. Out of my six closest friends, only two are women, and those two are just as weird as I am. I guess I just don't fit in with the "classic" woman things. I don't do shopping, spas, or shoes. (Except for books) I can't wait to go see a demolition derby, I want his and her matching four wheelers for me and my hubby, I can't wait for our picnic in the graveyard, and I am obsessed with writing. I do dye my hair weird colors, but that's for fun.
This brings me back to my last post here. My two best friends in this world are Adam and Tyler. That will never ever change. Most of the people that have let me down in my life are women. I think that's why my two close women friends mean so much to me. Megan and Kayla are so important to me. I love them and cherish their friendship. My guy close friends: Don, David, Mike, and Ed. You guys rock!
To my dear sweet family, Adam and Tyler-I love you with all of my heart, and you guys always come first.
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Monday, March 14, 2011
Today, I Am Thankful
I am thankful for so many things. I am thankful for my husband and son. I am thankful for my parents, and the love they show me.I am thankful for sweet friends like Becky O. and Kasi. Kasi, I know I have only met you through Facebook, but you are a sweet friend.
I am grateful that spring is coming, and the snow is melting. I can't wait for my Lilacs to bloom. I love that this world is so beautiful.
I'm grateful for having people in my life that stick with me through the good and the bad. Even my sweet little cat Emily. She has her own sweet personality that I love.
I am grateful for the tests and trials that we go through as a family because they will make us stronger. I am grateful for my faith. I know that Heavenly Father loves me and my family, and in the end, that's all that matters.
I want to thank all of you for sticking by my side. I know that at times I need to just shut down, vent, or cry. I still want to thank my sweet friends new and old for sticking with me. Know I love you all, and I am forever grateful for the blessings that you are.
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Sunday, February 20, 2011
The Things That Stick
Sometimes thing just stick with you. You pick them up in different places, and at different times. Some are good, and some are bad. These things can come from books, people, and more importantly, from God.
I have picked up a lot this week. I hope you will finish reading this, because they are important to me. The first thing I learned is that I have a lot to learn. I need to be more humble and prayerful. I need to stop and give thanks for my many blessings. Like everyone else, I pray for things I need or want, get caught up in my own day to day life, and forget to thank God for all that I do have.
I learned that to have a loving family and home are the most important things in this life. I learned that from an incredible author, Todd Strasser. He wrote Can't Get There From Here. I highly recommend this book. It stays with you and helps you to realize that family and home are such amazing blessings.
I also learned this week that Heavenly Father puts you in places you need to be, whether that is to learn an important lesson or to help others. I was feeling so alone today, so isolated from the world. That happens when you are dealing with a child that has ongoing health problems. Out of the blue, a sweet friend called me. She has children that have health problems as well. She could relate to everything I have been feeling. We stayed on the phone for over an hour. She listened, gave advice, helped me see things from a new perspective, and offered her help. That is exactly what I needed today.
Family first. I have learned that I need to be here in the present; in the here and now. If my child needs me, that has to come before anything else. If my dear husband needs me, that has to come first on my priority list. Other things have to fall by the wayside. I should not and must not feel guilty if I can't do all and be all. I also learned that it is okay to reach out and ask for help.
I have picked up a lot this week. I hope you will finish reading this, because they are important to me. The first thing I learned is that I have a lot to learn. I need to be more humble and prayerful. I need to stop and give thanks for my many blessings. Like everyone else, I pray for things I need or want, get caught up in my own day to day life, and forget to thank God for all that I do have.
I learned that to have a loving family and home are the most important things in this life. I learned that from an incredible author, Todd Strasser. He wrote Can't Get There From Here. I highly recommend this book. It stays with you and helps you to realize that family and home are such amazing blessings.
I also learned this week that Heavenly Father puts you in places you need to be, whether that is to learn an important lesson or to help others. I was feeling so alone today, so isolated from the world. That happens when you are dealing with a child that has ongoing health problems. Out of the blue, a sweet friend called me. She has children that have health problems as well. She could relate to everything I have been feeling. We stayed on the phone for over an hour. She listened, gave advice, helped me see things from a new perspective, and offered her help. That is exactly what I needed today.
Family first. I have learned that I need to be here in the present; in the here and now. If my child needs me, that has to come before anything else. If my dear husband needs me, that has to come first on my priority list. Other things have to fall by the wayside. I should not and must not feel guilty if I can't do all and be all. I also learned that it is okay to reach out and ask for help.
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Sunday, January 30, 2011
It Has Been Too Long!
I have been thinking a lot about the past. My past to be exact. I would like to say that I was pondering the lives of great leaders, but nope just my life.
Adam and I have been together for more than half of my life and our bunchkins has been in our lives literally for half of my life. He is 16, and I got pregnant with him just before my 17th birthday.
I don't regret it for a moment! He is my little piece of Heaven on earth. It hasn't always been easy, but it has been worth it. We have grown up together; it's amazing and beautiful.
I know it helps that Adam and I can still remember the good and bad of being a teen. We hold nothing back. Our theory is learn from our mistakes. It's working for us. We have the greatest kid in the world!!!!!!
Another awesome thing that I want to share today is the miracle of answered prayers, and that I know that there is a loving Heavenly Father that hears His children.
I have had so many experiences that tell me that He is there for me. I have great joy in my heart at having this knowledge.
Adam and I have been together for more than half of my life and our bunchkins has been in our lives literally for half of my life. He is 16, and I got pregnant with him just before my 17th birthday.
I don't regret it for a moment! He is my little piece of Heaven on earth. It hasn't always been easy, but it has been worth it. We have grown up together; it's amazing and beautiful.
I know it helps that Adam and I can still remember the good and bad of being a teen. We hold nothing back. Our theory is learn from our mistakes. It's working for us. We have the greatest kid in the world!!!!!!
Another awesome thing that I want to share today is the miracle of answered prayers, and that I know that there is a loving Heavenly Father that hears His children.
I have had so many experiences that tell me that He is there for me. I have great joy in my heart at having this knowledge.
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Friday, January 7, 2011
Family Tradition
I see sick people! Tyler has a stomach bug, my doctor raised my dose of meds for my migraine symptoms, and Adam has been having his migraine issues.
Anyhoo, yesterday was a good day. I helped my parents, went grocery shopping, and I was able to spend time with my hubby and son. We have a tradition where I read to them. We have created so many great memories doing this.
We started this tradition with the last Harry Potter book, and carried it through the Twilight series, Midnighter series, Gone, Hunger, and now the Uglies series. We have so many more to go through. We all love it.
I have to say that probably my favorite author right now is Scott Westerfeld. This man's imagination and writing style just blows my mind! I also love Jay Asher's book, 13 Reasons Why. I think it's a must read for parents.
Anyhoo, yesterday was a good day. I helped my parents, went grocery shopping, and I was able to spend time with my hubby and son. We have a tradition where I read to them. We have created so many great memories doing this.
We started this tradition with the last Harry Potter book, and carried it through the Twilight series, Midnighter series, Gone, Hunger, and now the Uglies series. We have so many more to go through. We all love it.
I have to say that probably my favorite author right now is Scott Westerfeld. This man's imagination and writing style just blows my mind! I also love Jay Asher's book, 13 Reasons Why. I think it's a must read for parents.
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Sunday, January 2, 2011
Trust and Thanks
Trust is an amazing thing. If you think about how much we depend on the trust of others, it can be a little scary. I have a very hard time trusting anyone or letting anyone in my life. I think that is one of the reasons why I like to write.
When I write, I am in complete control of the characters that I create; where they go, what they say, how they say it and how they act. All of it is under my control, and they never let me down.
In the real world, where people can hurt me, I hold back. I hold everything back. I keep people at arm's length. No one but my husband knows the real me. People don't know what I have gone through in my past. They don't know what I really think or feel. The only person in this life that I trust is my husband.
That's not to say that I don't have people that I care about deeply. I do. I am just so afraid that if people know the real me, I won't be enough. People may not like me once they get to know me. In my experience people leave. They don't stick around for the long haul.
My sweet husband, son, Kim C., Sam, Rachel, Megan, and Ed are the exceptions. They like me, weirdness and all. Believe me, I have a whole lotta weird goin' on. To them I say thank you with my whole heart!
When I write, I am in complete control of the characters that I create; where they go, what they say, how they say it and how they act. All of it is under my control, and they never let me down.
In the real world, where people can hurt me, I hold back. I hold everything back. I keep people at arm's length. No one but my husband knows the real me. People don't know what I have gone through in my past. They don't know what I really think or feel. The only person in this life that I trust is my husband.
That's not to say that I don't have people that I care about deeply. I do. I am just so afraid that if people know the real me, I won't be enough. People may not like me once they get to know me. In my experience people leave. They don't stick around for the long haul.
My sweet husband, son, Kim C., Sam, Rachel, Megan, and Ed are the exceptions. They like me, weirdness and all. Believe me, I have a whole lotta weird goin' on. To them I say thank you with my whole heart!
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